She lifted her head from her pillow, waking to the sound of rain. Glancing over at her calendar, Mixus tried to steady the beating of her heart. She hadnt needed to look; she knew what day it was.
The young woman brushed her auburn hair gently from her eyes, feet padding softly across the hard wooden floor. There, on the windowsill, was that flower he had given her years ago. Four years ago today. It was kept carefully preserved, looking almost alive when hit by the sun, but it was only a trick of the eye. He had picked it from their garden and tucked it behind her ear, smiling sweetly as he whispered that he would come home soon, he p
You leave me --
reaching --
in despair and undecided.
I call out for your touch,
memories spiraling endlessly
inside my mind.
The hope that rested in my heart
becomes suffocating,
strangling me with things
I didn't know I could feel anymore.
Pieces of myself --
once forgotten --
rise up into my throat
as time pulls you from my arms.
I try, but I cannot sing.
I find myself wishing for you,
staring on forever into light.
The feeling of needing you came naturally to me.
In loving you, I found my sense of being.
Now all of that has been stripped away,
and I am empty inside.
I feel as though I have been tainted.
My eyes wh
Piece For A Farewell To Arms by ShadowAlchemistSu, literature
Literature
Piece For A Farewell To Arms
October
My husband has left home for Iraq. My daughter, who is just about six years old, will surely be asking questions. She has already dealt out the typical ones.
Mom, when will Papa be home?
Soon enough, sweetheart. When the war is over.
Whyd he go?
Hes going to help protect the country, Erika. Hes doing a very good thing. Its his job, now.
She huffed. He's not getting paid for it... I smiled,
Keep going -- strive for perfection.
You have not reached your goal until
everyone loves you.
Who cares
if she's the only one that matters?
Who cares
if she says she likes you
just the way you are?
They don't have to know your favorite song
or what you really want to be
someday.
You're there to make HIM look good;
to live up to society's standards.
Keep trying -- you're almost there.
Just a few more
steps
until you make it,
only to fall behind once again.
It's hard --
but you can do it.
There are just so many people to please.
Forget her. Pretend you never loved her. Make it so that your eyes never meet -- keep looking away. Act as if you don't care, so that she sees what sort of pain and betrayal you are feeling. Distract yourself; you cannot cry. At least not until you're safe, alone. Don't bother correcting her when she accuses you of not caring. Let her doubt you. She loves him, not you. She needs him, not you. Don't trouble yourself -- or her -- explaining that you tried, that you don't want to be angry but you always are. Even after she knew of your betrayal (,though with hesitation), she accepted you. She taught you about real love, tried to show you what a
You lay in bed silently, the moon and stars outside casting a gentle illumination over your tiny, delicate form. Three months so far without your mother. Three harsh, lonely, torturous months; and you were only seven years old. You ventured deeper into your covers at a crash of distant thunder.
You remembered when your mother used to come in every time there was a storm, and hold you tight. She would sing to you, always, until you fell asleep. And on those restless stormy nights, when not even a lullaby could soothe you, she would sit and just talk to you. Tell you that everything was alright; that you were together, and even
A Fallen Angel,
With broken wings.
Of life in the clouds,
She used to sing.
She danced and danced,
Across the sky,
Until her happiness,
Passed her by.
A Demon came,
From down below,
And took her joy,
Right from under her nose.
The Tainted Angel wept and wept,
Speaking of promises that could not be kept.
And so she committed the greatest Sin,
And tried to bring back her fallen kin.
This Sin her wings were broken for,
And now the Angel sings no more.
Despite the loss,
Despite the pain,
A Fallen Angel, she'll forever remain.
The Trouble With Me Is... by ShadowAlchemistSu, literature
Literature
The Trouble With Me Is...
I stepped into the house and she greeted me smiling, as always. Her smile faltered, though, as she attempted to decipher my expression. "Sumiko…is something troubling you..?"
My best friend died today. The one I've known for years. But you needn't worry, Mayu, it was my fault after all. As with my mother, it's only one less reason for me to live.
Also, I think I might be failing school this year. With all that's been going on in my mind, I just can't seem to bring myself to try, anymore.
My father still rejects me, and refuses to let me prove myself to him, even though he knows how important that is to me.
Everyone I love is leaving me. I
My First Attempt at Lyrics by ShadowAlchemistSu, literature
Literature
My First Attempt at Lyrics
Silently, at night, I cry.
Chills run down my spine
As the wind whispers harsh words into my ear.
(Confirming what I've known all along.)
Violence,
Hope,
And Desperation;
The three aspects of what I once thought
Was myself.
We can't hold on forever,
But they say that if you try,
You just might reach the stars.
There is nothing that will always be.
Even the night's sky won't last forever.
But if this is all you believe in,
You will never shine.
All the memories that we hold so dear
Ring true in our hearts.
I will be fine,
As long as I have you here beside me.
If I can somehow reach that unattainable dream,
I can show yo
The Second Attempt by ShadowAlchemistSu, literature
Literature
The Second Attempt
As the sun warms my face,
I finally begin to feel.
Seeing you makes everything worthwhile.
If we could only walk forever,
Striding far beyond the darkness in our hearts,
Maybe we could finally find our wings.
I want to sleep for an eternity,
Rocked gently by my glistening sky,
And listen to the music of the waves.
If I whisper that I love you,
My voice will surely reach your ears.
I wish I could take back the things I told you as I cried,
And hold you forever in my arms.
But I am afraid to touch,
And I search for you to find
That you are gone.
I lie awake each night,
Temptation grasping at my dreams,
Convincing me that I cannot belong.
The harsh darkness of shadows have engulfed my fragile mind,
Calling out in cruelty to my conscience
As it hides.
I am your shattered hopes and expectations,
Which share the blood that courses through you;
A Fallen Angel born through hateful union.
Pray no longer for the Angel you desire.
Because of your deceptions, your betrayals, and your lies,
She will remain forever lost.
The hurtful words and harsh affection,
That some have called 'Tough Love,'
Is never what was fated to be.
Wanting hasn't gotten us anywhere.
Hopes and dreams can
A Wounded Girl With Tainted Eyes;
Haunting Prayers And Piercing Cries.
Betrayal of Trust; The Love That Dies.
A Life Of Hatred; A Life Of Lies.
Faceless Expressions; Searing Pain.
Shattered Dreams In The Lashing Rain.
Spirits of Hope; Tears of Sorrow.
A Fear Of The Darkness; The Course We Must Follow.
A Fleeting Smile; Your Lingering Touch.
This Life So Painful; These Scars Too Much.
So I Must Thank Her, Before We Part...
The Beautiful Angel That Touched My Heart.
A soldier in big boots,
Belt, and knapsack;
Quickly forgetting
And seldom sorrowful,
Forever pressing on
Under the wide night sky.
Are not his twenty summers there?
The pure fragrance of the water
And the melody of the wind;
We loved them dearly,
And the image of those days
Still makes my heart pause
In its beating.
A little soldier and a clear voice,
And if anyone were to caress him
He would hardly understand,
This little soldier with the big boots
And the shut heart,
Who marches because he is wearing big boots,
And has forgotten all else but marching.
A young girl sat on a hill, smiling at the boy who was lying beside her. "Shin-chan, what do you think the sky is made of?"
The boy sat up, blinking. "The sky?"
"Yeah. What's it made of?"
He laughed a little. "Air!"
She frowned, unsatisfied. "But then why's it blue?"
Shin sighed. "I don't know."
She thought for a moment, quiet. "Hey, Shin-chan...why're you always acting funny?"
"Funny? What do you mean?"
"Well..." The girl picked a daisy and studied it, trying to word this according to her feelings. "I don't know...everybody says you act funny around me. You act different around all the other kids. One of them said you liked m
You lay in bed silently, the moon and stars outside casting a gentle illumination over your tiny, delicate form. Three months so far without your mother. Three harsh, lonely, torturous months; and you were only seven years old. You ventured deeper into your covers at a crash of distant thunder.
You remembered when your mother used to come in every time there was a storm, and hold you tight. She would sing to you, always, until you fell asleep. And on those restless stormy nights, when not even a lullaby could soothe you, she would sit and just talk to you. Tell you that everything was alright; that you were together, and even
Current Residence: A stupid snobby suburb town in New York...some of the people here SUCK >< Favourite genre of music: all^^ well......almost all..^^ I love Broadway...^^; Operating System: iPhone, and other peoples' computers MP3 player of choice: iPhone. It's iPod, not your pod!!! XD Steven... Shell of choice: Clam shells^^ Oyster shells^^ All types of shells!!^^ Skin of choice: None. I'm not one to wear animals <3 Favourite cartoon character: Uh...lots of anime characters XP Personally, though, I also like originals^^ Personal Quote: "I like warm water^^ It's like original flavor tea^^"
Favourite Visual Artist
Arina Tanemura
Favourite Movies
Wolverine...>3
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
@.@ too many bands...
Favourite Writers
HOLLY BLACK! HOLLY BLACK! HOLLY BLA-- *gets shot*
Favourite Games
Harvest Moon! It's Chance the Womanizing Farmer!!! XD
Favourite Gaming Platform
PS2 and Gamecube
Tools of the Trade
NOT PEOPLE >>
Other Interests
Music, anime, writing, reading, language, swimming, aaaand a lot of other stuff
Found this on SuInu's page =3 Going to use Sumi, of course <3
1) Choose one of your own characters (OC).
2) Make them answer the following questions.
3) Then tag three people.
4) Feel free to add some questions of your own.
1) What gender are you?
*glances down at chest* Do you really have to ask..?
2) What is your age?
23^^
3) Do you want a hug?
Sure =3
4) Do you have any bad habits?
A lot of them…can we not get into this..? >//>
5) What is your favorite food?
Potatoes and sweets~
6) What is your favorite ice-cream flavor?
Strawberry^^
7) Are you a virgin?
Uh….let's just say I'm at about negative 650 and counti
Tsunderekko (Harsh Outside-Gentle Inside)
[] You come off as sort of aloof to other people.
[x] In public, you intentionally refrain from showing much weakness. (well, I don't like crying in public..)
[x] You have a secret obsession with something cute. (my obsessions are no secret)
[] You pretend that you hate your crush even though you really love him/her.
[x] You blush when people point out your sensitivities. (crushes, and things..)
[] You blush when people tell sexual jokes. (what?! I'm the one making them!)
Total: 3
Yanderekko (Gentle Outside-Harsh Inside)
[x] You're very sweet and kind in public.
[] When romance becomes a top
No, not Lovesick, SONG Sick X3 I was helping my dad, reading off a list of songs so he could sort through his iTunes...then we ended up listening to music together, and from there I discovered the Anniversary Song. It's tune is really pretty and it has such nice lyrics and it reminds me of too many or possibly too few couples so EEEEEEEEEEEEE~! XP Sorry, but it's sweet. Look it up, or don't, but I'm putting the lyrics here for you either way. And also~ I think I'm getting my computer back after school (getting a new one, rather...the cats broke the old one xD) because I already got my iPod and yesterday Dad let me go over to Sarah's house so